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A few evenings ago I spent the night listening to an in-person talk from Deepak Chopra. During the talk he discussed the flow of energy in the universe and how we are vehicles for that energy.

I also recently saw a spiritual person that I follow post that when you’re living your life’s purpose, you wake up and do everything with energy and drive, and when you’re not or when you’re too busy holding onto your past you feel low energy, stagnant, and sad.

During the guided meditation portion of the night, Chopra asked us to envision a candle sitting on the table. He asked us to continually recall it in our heads. It was difficult to keep the image there, it took focus and concentration. He pointed out the difficulty and extra focus it took, and suggested that with the same difficulty we hold on to many things in our life.
 
It got me thinking… About “old me”. I didn’t really intend to bring “old Amber” into this mix, because I’d really just iike to believe that people reading this could think I’ve always been this massively evolved guru or some shit – but that’s just not the case.

Old me held onto a lot of stuff. Jealousy, childhood traumas, relationship traumas, broken heart stuff – all of it. I was angry and low energy and fueled by bitterness. I felt as though I had to control every aspect of my life. And holding onto EVERYTHING was EXHAUSTING.

It’s ironic because I have a good number of soul family members, but it was perhaps among my lowest points in my relationship, when things in my life were just really rocky that an old friend came into town. We were out to dinner with some friends and I got really pissy about the waitress being incompetent.

He asked me, point blank, “Isn’t that exhausting?” 

It was. But I had NO IDEA.
I had no idea why I was so tired all the time. Why I was sad, depressed, and lonely. Why everything on the outside was just WRONG— 

It was me. Holding onto my past and projecting all my shit out into the world, and it coming back reflected onto me.

Let me step back.
There is a flow of energy in the universe. There’s gravity and theres the rotation of the planets around the sun and the rotation of the moon around the earth and the stars in the sky. It’s all charted, it all moves in a certain way – it all makes sense. 

What if humans are moved by the same forces and when we’re out of alignment with our path we’re in resistance with universal energy? Like.. that’s why we can’t get out of bed, that’s why we find ourselves constantly presented with obstacles or signs from the universe that we’re going in the wrong direction.

It’s all energy.

Someone asked me once how I could ever determine whether or not a synchronicity wasn’t just a coincidence – and I couldn’t really explain it well – just to say that I believe that everything is interconnected energetically and that one small tweak in the tiniest thing can change the course of everyone’s lives. So if everything is linked energetically, why shouldn’t things cross our paths at the very perfect timing that they’re meant to? 

When you are in resistance with your greatest purpose, your energy will reflect it. When you are in alignment – it is just easier.

It’s like… running against the wind. Running against the wind is exhausting. But running with the wind gives you even more momentum.

The sun controls the planets. The moon controls the tides. We are mainly composed of water.

Towards the middle of the meditation, Chopra asked us to let things come in, and then let them flow out. He suggested (like many meditation practitioners), to let it come, acknowledge it, and let it go.

What are you holding on to?
How much energy do you think it requires in the machine of your body to continually replay those traumas over and over in your latest reality? 
How energetically aligned do you feel with your greatest purpose? 
What lights you up?

I ask you all of this because if you’re looking for flow, if you feel stagnant and low energy, then whatever you thought of when you read that is your way to syncing up with the universe.